Walk away or Try harder
This has been on my mind lately!
When it comes to this topic, I am what people call “The last man standing” because I try as much as possible not to let regret take a place in my life whatsoever.
If I make a decision, whatever the situation might be I am either all in or I never start at all!
Yes, it might be a great asset to have and it helped me a lot in my life and I am grateful to have this value in me. Yet, sometimes it becomes a liability and burns you out into ashes where there’s no coming back from.
It sucks the energy out of you and leaves you exhausted, drained, and on the edge of falling apart.
If you caught yourself earlier then you’re lucky!
I came to ask myself this question one day out of the blue, “Did I do all that for nothing?”
And it hit me, “I have been investing my time and energy into something I knew earlier would end this way, but I took my chances and bet my time on it anyway and didn’t trust my heart from the beginning”
It all came to light when things started falling apart.
I used to I had this belief before, that for you to get to a certain destination you have to keep pressing on the gas pedal till you reach your goal and I did that for as much as I can remember.
Did I get there?
yes, I did.
It was a nice ride till it started to turn into a dead end.
After a few years, I ran out of gas and the engine was set on fire for far too long, now my car is no longer able to move forward.
Suddenly felt like I was stuck out in a desert with no way out.
Everything started falling apart.
Guilt, sorrow, anger, hatred, and shame came swallowing me alive.
I was trapped in one place for a while wanting someone to hear my silent screamings, my trapped tears, and my broken hopes.
I felt frustrated with how it turned out to be but do I regret it?
I can certainly say with no doubt that I don’t regret that decision at all, I only regret not knowing when to stop and walk away!
In the end, all I want to say is that if you’re someone like me, remember that walking away takes courage sometimes, and by walking away I don’t mean giving up or quitting, I simply mean “I did my best, gave my all, now it’s time to take care of me and what’s worth my time and efforts.”
Thanks for your time ~
A lesson from my journey ~
